Hi guys
I know this is not a mental health advice forum but wondering if anyone could recommend me anything.
Basically on an off for the last 2-3 years or even more I feel like I'm on a downward spiral. On the outside my life looks great, I have a loving husband, own a home, have a decent enough job and disposable income etc. Small circle of friends which suits me as I'm a bit of an introvert.
However I am crippled by feelings of low self esteen and self doubt to the point where I have days, sometimes now weeks, where I just can't stop crying and catastrophising. I'm a serial procrastinator because I'm so scared about messing things up even simple things like cooking a nice dinner. I've recently changed roles at work and feel my performance is being affected because I'm so so sensitive to the slightest thing, even stupid things like the tone of an unimportant email, that it puts me in a horribly negative frame of mind for days and impacts my ability to get stuff done. I take hours to do tasks that should take 15 mins.
I used to think this was all down to hormones because these feelings would periodically worsen every few weeks but it's now getting to the point where even my very patient husband is getting annoyed with me because he feels I do nothing to help myself or listen to rhyme or reason.
So I feel like maybe I should talk to someone but I don't really know where to turn. About 12 or so years ago I had a bout of depression (it was at uni so I had some free uni counselling sessions) and found this didn't help at all. I'm quite a cynical character and dont really see how talking to a stranger can help and then get told to do yoga or CBT exercises or whatever. Recently I've tried looking at online counselling but don't really know if any of this would help.
Just to add I do exercise regularly and it does help but only for a while and then the feelings return. I've considered talking to. My GP but don't really want to be put on antidepressants.
Any suggestions at all?
I know this is not a mental health advice forum but wondering if anyone could recommend me anything.
Basically on an off for the last 2-3 years or even more I feel like I'm on a downward spiral. On the outside my life looks great, I have a loving husband, own a home, have a decent enough job and disposable income etc. Small circle of friends which suits me as I'm a bit of an introvert.
However I am crippled by feelings of low self esteen and self doubt to the point where I have days, sometimes now weeks, where I just can't stop crying and catastrophising. I'm a serial procrastinator because I'm so scared about messing things up even simple things like cooking a nice dinner. I've recently changed roles at work and feel my performance is being affected because I'm so so sensitive to the slightest thing, even stupid things like the tone of an unimportant email, that it puts me in a horribly negative frame of mind for days and impacts my ability to get stuff done. I take hours to do tasks that should take 15 mins.
I used to think this was all down to hormones because these feelings would periodically worsen every few weeks but it's now getting to the point where even my very patient husband is getting annoyed with me because he feels I do nothing to help myself or listen to rhyme or reason.
So I feel like maybe I should talk to someone but I don't really know where to turn. About 12 or so years ago I had a bout of depression (it was at uni so I had some free uni counselling sessions) and found this didn't help at all. I'm quite a cynical character and dont really see how talking to a stranger can help and then get told to do yoga or CBT exercises or whatever. Recently I've tried looking at online counselling but don't really know if any of this would help.
Just to add I do exercise regularly and it does help but only for a while and then the feelings return. I've considered talking to. My GP but don't really want to be put on antidepressants.
Any suggestions at all?