Hi ladies, I hope you donāt mind but Iāve got a very TMI post to share, Iām going out of my mind with worry, and I just need to know if anyone else has had these issues and if they are normal/abnormal?.
So, I had my baby girl almost 11 weeks ago now.
Sheās my 4th baby but I did have a 12 year gap between her and my last baby (I doubt that makes much of a difference).
Anyway, the labour and birth were all normal and pretty uneventful, she came out with a few pushes.
I delivered her on all fours as opposed to on my back (I delivered the other 3 on my back), and she was my heaviest baby at 8lb 8oz.
They said that I didnāt need any stitches and there were only a few superficial grazes, so I thought Iād got off pretty lightly...
Anyway, in the days and weeks following her birth, pooing has been absolute agony (like worse than the actual birth kind of agony
), literally like pooing glass, and really difficult to actually get the poo out (like it feels stuck).
I spoke to a GP over the phone about it just after Xmas, and without even wanting to see me, she diagnosed an anal fissure and prescribed me some cream, it took me weeks to finally get it, as my pharmacy is just crap, but luckily I picked it up last week and have been applying it.
The pain seems to have gone now (thank god) but it still feels āweirdā pooing, and when I need to go I absolutely have to go, and if I donāt find a toilet asap Iām screwed ( I havenāt actually pooped myself, but Iām worried it would potentially happen).
Anyway, back at Xmas when I was at my wits end with the pain, I examined myself in a mirror (down below) my bum hole looked fine but I was shocked by how much my lady bits had changedā¦
The only way that I can describe it, is that my whole vulva has āsplitā almost down to my bum hole (as into my āgoochā), there is only now a tiny bit of skin between my vagina and anus, itās also red (which Iām not sure is just normal after birth).
I never looked ādown belowā after having my other babies ( not for many months anyway), so im not sure if this is normal and it will ātighten upā.
Today, I had a poo (I go every 3 days or so), and again it was painfree (amazing) but still felt āoddā.
I decided to have another look down below , and it seems to be worse than it was before, as in the āsplitā, my ladybits are extremely red, and it looks like almost muscle-looking tissue is exposed.
Iām sure itās not a prolapse or anything like that, as my actual vaginal opening (as in the āholeā) looks normal, itās below itā¦
Weāve had sex once since the birth, and surprisingly it was just as good as always and didnāt hurt or anything , so I donāt think my actual vagina has any issues.
Last week I had a very small 2 day bleed, which I mentioned in a previous thread (Iām breastfeeding so I donāt think it was a period) and over the last couple of weeks, Iāve been having some really heavy discharge, which ranges from mucousy to creamy (always white), to the point that I need to wear pantyliners, I donāt know if this is still my body going back to normal.
I had my ā8 weeks checkā last week (even though it was 10 weeks post birth), and I didnāt feel comfortable mentioning any of this to the doctor. She was pleasant enough, but seemed very rushed and not very approachable at all.
I did mention the small bleed, to which she just said āI donāt know what that wasā ā¦
Im paranoid that Iāve damaged myself from the birth, I remember how intensely I was pushing and feeling like my bum was just splitting
.
Aside, from my ādown below areaā being dodgy, the rest of my body feels so weak, Iām still aching like I did when I was pregnant (SPD type pain), and Iāve got terrible lower back pain.
Iāve lost all the baby weight, which Iām grateful for, but Iām not the strong toned person that I was previously. Im sure being āolderā this time has had an impact.
Someone has suggested seeing a private physio who specialises in postnatal problems, I doubt that Iāll be able to afford one (unless itās a credit card job), I love our NHS (Iām a nurse myself) but none of the female GPs at my practice seem approachable, and itās such an intimate problem and I feel extremely vulnerable
Iām sooo sorry that this post is extremely TMI!!!