Gosh it makes me so sad that there are so many of us in this situation. My Mum is in full on narc mode today and we are getting ready to head up to her house for my sister’s birthday. The ‘sly dig’ messages started yesterday. She so desperately wants me up there early to help (you can’t help, you get barked at to do a job that you do wrong and she then does it anyway)
I’m getting my kids back from their dad early so they can come. When mum told me about this meal it was meant to be ‘4pm-ish’ so I agreed to have the kids back at 3. Now she’s like ‘your sister is already here’ at midday. I am already filled with nerves and anxiety. I’m worried I’ll say something wrong. I’m worried about how my kids will behave. My daughter is autistic and they often crand overbear her with food and questions and drinks etc… I feel like crying.
Truth is what I really need is a big glass of wine when I arrive, but if I have a few I’ll start speaking up and they don’t like that.
My fiancé and his 18 year old son are coming too, they will be able to absorb some of the conversations. It doesn’t get to them as much as it does to me, although my fiancé has no time for my sister due to the Co-dependent narc relationship her and my mum have.
I know I only really lurk on this thread and I don’t tend to get involved in the conversations but THANK YOU to anyone who has shared their experiences. It makes me feel heard and understood. I’ve had so much therapy and I do have good boundaries but today I am being tested because mum is guilting me in and pulling me towards her. I know she just wants control and I’m in my late 30’s so I can make my own decisions now. I’m telling myself to stay strong.
Much love to you all and hope your days are going to all work out well, here’s hoping mine does too.
I’m getting my kids back from their dad early so they can come. When mum told me about this meal it was meant to be ‘4pm-ish’ so I agreed to have the kids back at 3. Now she’s like ‘your sister is already here’ at midday. I am already filled with nerves and anxiety. I’m worried I’ll say something wrong. I’m worried about how my kids will behave. My daughter is autistic and they often crand overbear her with food and questions and drinks etc… I feel like crying.
Truth is what I really need is a big glass of wine when I arrive, but if I have a few I’ll start speaking up and they don’t like that.
My fiancé and his 18 year old son are coming too, they will be able to absorb some of the conversations. It doesn’t get to them as much as it does to me, although my fiancé has no time for my sister due to the Co-dependent narc relationship her and my mum have.
I know I only really lurk on this thread and I don’t tend to get involved in the conversations but THANK YOU to anyone who has shared their experiences. It makes me feel heard and understood. I’ve had so much therapy and I do have good boundaries but today I am being tested because mum is guilting me in and pulling me towards her. I know she just wants control and I’m in my late 30’s so I can make my own decisions now. I’m telling myself to stay strong.
Much love to you all and hope your days are going to all work out well, here’s hoping mine does too.