Hello, I wonder can anyone give me some advice please? It’s probably more helpful in this forum as nobody will be biased or have personal involvement. My Dad is a narcissist and I don’t have a relationship with him anymore. I am 31. He had me when he was very young and my Mum (an angel) and him split up when I was about 4. I have always been extremely close to my paternal grandparents as I feel that they stood in where he was absent and as a result of this, I almost feel like they are “my Dad” if you know what I mean. He’s a very controlling man, money is his God and he is never wrong. So much so that on the one occasion where he actually apologised to me (after I asked, which makes it not even count anyway) he said “sorry” in a mocking voice, like you would do if you were doing an impression of someone you don’t like. He’s obsessed with power, image, being intelligent and being portrayed as successful and hilarious to the outside world. When I was younger he used to come into my life and try and compensate for his absence or horrible personality by buying me expensive things and at times I thought this was great, but now I’m old enough to have sense. You can’t buy love. I’ve often felt guilty in the past about the condition of our relationship and I think it’s just in you to want to get along because “he’s your Dad”, but deep down I know that every time I reach out to try and make things better he ends up hurting me again and just being mean and controlling. He doesn’t ask “how are you?”, it’ll be “how much money do you earn?” or look for some kind of recognition for example when I mention that I bumped into someone he’ll say “did they ask about me? Do they know I’m your Dad?”.
My issue is that I’m getting married this year. I didn’t contact him to tell him that I got engaged and currently, I do not plan on inviting him to the wedding. My fiancé doesn’t know him. But my fiancé has got notifications on his LinkedIn to say that my Dad has been stalking his account
I feel like I don’t want him at my wedding but also afraid of regretting it (even though I currently feel like I won’t and won’t ever!) but I know you can feel differently when you reflect on occassions later. He missed my Debs and my graduation as he decided to go on holidays with his wife, even though he knew what my dates were. So I know he’s not invested in me. But I feel like the wedding will be a big deal for him as he will be “Father of the Bride” and that’s the type of status he wants - making a speech etc! However, if he did come, I would only want him as a wallflower and not front and centre like he probably thinks he should be. Is it better to not invite him at all and run the risk of him gate crashing or would you invite him and pray that he won’t cause a scene when he realises that my Mom will be the main attraction on the day (walking me down aisle etc) and not him.