I’ve actually listened to the first 1h15 then had to head out, but I wrote the below as I was listening.
Spoiler alert/TLDR, I don’t know the host, but god, I found him insufferable
Super indulgent podcast, like we get it, you met 10 years ago.
That said, I thought she came across really well and my heart absolutely broke for her!
- Skip the first 5 minutes, advents and intro
- She had been thinking about her come back for a while but was overthinking it and became almost paralysed by it. She wanted to come back in a big way, just say “that’s what happened” and kind of draw a line under it. She’s since got comments saying that she’s trying to monetise her loss and if we had been with her over the past 4 years, we would know it’s not like that.
- At 14 minutes, she’s about to start the story, talk about the day the person passed and the host interrupts her, says we need to add context or something, literally inserts an ad break there, then he waffles on about how they met (he already said that at the start), talks about a photoshoot they did 10 years ago, talks about her career/following at the time, the body positivity movement, etc.
- We’re now at 33 minutes and he says “right to go back to that day”… then mentions that he messaged her probably once a month to check in on her
- She lost her partner whom she first met when she was 18 and had been dating for a few years. She couldn’t reach him so she asked his flatmate to check on him and he found him dead. It was sudden adult death, he went to bed and didn’t wake up. In the end, it turns out he had a minor cardiac anomaly but it wasn’t bad enough to be fatal, so it’s very much a case of “Shouldn’t have happened, but it did”. She was interviewed by the police on the day (did you have a fight, etc) as they were trying to figure out what had happened to him.
- At this point, I think him and I have a different understanding of what a podcast is tbh. Imo, he’s meant to be there to facilitate her telling her story and kind of guide her, I guess, but he keeps interrupting and inserting himself into everything she says.
- In the aftermath, she was put under anti-depressants, she fell into addiction (drinking wine boxes everyday, etc). She was drinking and smoking in the street, stopping people outside the shops while drinking wine out of the bottle because she wanted to talk about her partner. She was prescribed codeine as a painkiller and she became addicted to that too (up to 50 Cocodamol a day). She also considered death a lot.
- They talked about grief a lot, and that when I had to stop listening. Will finish it later!
