I'm going to try and make this short. My step dad who lives across the hall in the same block of flats had a stroke just before lock down. The local hospital kicked him out the next day as they were clearing up the beds for the 'covid'. Anyhow he(my step dad) wouldn't listen to resting etc and (I am trying to keep this short I promise) ended up having a major stroke and lost apart from nearly his life but the whole left side of his body. He went bk to hospital for all of lock down and he was made he could not make a decision himself and I'm his nok. They sent him to a care home and the physio did what they could and signed him off. A meeting happened (without my knowledge) and deemed him fit to make his own decisions. He chose to come home on the understanding I will look after him. Before anyone judging me that's no issue I wanted him home and was more than willing. He has carers 4 times a day coming in and says he wants nothing. He won't let anyone do anything for him apart from my husband (toilet duties). That's fine with my husband. There's always a but in everything. He can't walk or stand alone and for the last four nights /mornings he's trying to get himself out of bed and falling over and screaming all the other tenants awake at stupid o'clock. He's got a beeper thing but refuses to wear it, he has fallen 6 times now in 3 days and yes we stay with him constantly until bedtime but he seems to be waking up at 5/6am when I'm leaving his to go to bed and just as I nod off he's (which he's admitted) throwing himself out of bed because he's awake and wants attention. I don't know what to do as the only reason he was allowed home was if he had one fall he would be straight back in the home. Sooooo many people have pissed me off the ones who were so concerned when he was in hospital and now he's home cba. Even my own brother (his full son) comes round for an hour once a week and thinks he's amazing and the best son ever. I'm so torn and tired. I love him so much
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Sending you love. I cannot imagine how you're feeling. Easy for me to say "he needs to go back into hospital/a home due to his falls" but that's a hard decision to make. You love him, you'll feel guilty (even though you have no reason to feel guilty). Can you speak to his son? Remember, you need to be healthy to help him so you can't possibly be on call 24 hours a day. Sorry I've nothing helpful to offer but, as a full-time carer I can understand how torn you'll be 
All I have to offer is that caring for someone is hard and it will make you ill unless you have some strong boundaries down. These don't mean you don't love him. It's hard and the guilt is hard but sometimes it's needed.
Social services may be able to offer help and advice?
Rung the social services yesterday and as always little help they just said they can't offer anymore help than the 4 times a day carers they have coming in already. I tried to explain that he's refusing the help and they said to not go into his and help as often but I'm not being funny but I will never leave him lying on the floor. Tried speaking to my brother again and he said he can't take any time off work. I'm just going to have to continue. I've been up again since 5am as he was banging on the walls again and I have to consider others who live in the same building. Thanks for the encouragement though xx