This thread is so interesting. I worry a lot about whether my sex drive is normal and I’m neurotic about how much sex is enough, and whether a lack of sex means a relationship is doomed.
for context, my previous relationship was very dysfunctional and emotionally/psychologically abusive. It took me a long time after we broke up to even realise this. During the relationship I told myself that as long as we were having sex regularly it meant the relationship was healthy. I know that’s mad, but that’s what I clung to. I think I’d read and heard way too much about the importance of sex in a relationship and became hyper focused on it. As a result, we had sex regularly but I was, unknowingly, being abused.
Anyway, I am now in a really happy relationship. My OH and I can tell each other anything, and we’ve both been in therapy (individually, not as a couple) which has helped us be vulnerable with each other and talk openly.
we have sex probably about once a month these days. The sex is always good and my boyf is very attentive and we have loving sex. We’re very affectionate and intimate at all times, though. For some reason though I am still fixated on the amount of sex we’re having and its making it an issue in my head. I cannot seem to talk about it openly, despite us talking about everything else, as I feel so embarrassed.
I honestly think my abusive ex has rewired my brain in some way. He used to tell me it was my job to “seduce” him and I was never allowed to just outright talk about sex or ask for it - I had to subtly initiate and seduce instead. He also insulted me a lot etc. I think this has just trapped in my brain and I feel ashamed and self conscious about sex.
jesus now I’ve written this all down I realise how much of an issue this is. It’s really sad because I love my current partner so much and there’s no need for me to have this anxiety anymore.