Yesterday was a long day and my heart hurts.
My friend died almost three years ago just before christmas.
If I’m being honest I already don’t have a lot of friends, the people i’m closest to now are actually my 3 siblings and another person I meet up with every two weeks or so.
What triggered this current crying session is a someone new that i’ve met four times now saying “we’re friends now” and he literally spent the whole of the two hours yesterday that I was with him building my non existent self esteem up.
New person reminds me of the old person. The last conversation I had with my old friend who passed away was him telling me that “he was proud of me, that i had blossomed like a flower and that i would go far”.
Christmas just reminds me of things I don’t have.
I’m already in therapy and have been for a while.
My friend died almost three years ago just before christmas.
If I’m being honest I already don’t have a lot of friends, the people i’m closest to now are actually my 3 siblings and another person I meet up with every two weeks or so.
What triggered this current crying session is a someone new that i’ve met four times now saying “we’re friends now” and he literally spent the whole of the two hours yesterday that I was with him building my non existent self esteem up.
New person reminds me of the old person. The last conversation I had with my old friend who passed away was him telling me that “he was proud of me, that i had blossomed like a flower and that i would go far”.
Christmas just reminds me of things I don’t have.
I’m already in therapy and have been for a while.