Anti depressants arent always the answer.
Sometimes you just have to accept that you will have days where you feel like Eeyore from winnie the pooh.
I call them Eeyore days.
I just tell myself the Eeyore feeling will pass.
I allow myself no more than 2 days of it and then I kick my own arse and shift myself.
When eeyore is here, I do what I did yesterday and just look at stuff online.
The hours pass and eventually eeyore buggers off.
If you feel you do need to try tablets, remember, if you don't like them you just wean yourself off them after a minimum of 6 months.
I have found distracting myself from all the feelings you describe works best for me.
I took anti depressants some years ago and I also saw a psychologist for a year.
So I have tried both things.
What I have no experience with is insomnia.
Sorry I cant offer any help regarding that.
If I get the odd night when I cant sleep its usually because theres something on my mind that needs doing and once its done I can sleep again.
And until its done if I cant sleep I come downstairs and draw pictures or go on the computer for a bit.
But actual insomnia isnt something Ive had.
Sorry - but im sure there will be others who can help.
The main thing is that the bad feelings will pass.
When I was at school I had a crush on Roger Taylor from Queen. I read in a music paper that his favourite book was a sci fi novel called Dune.
So I got the book and read it.
It was fabulous.
In the Dune universe is a Sisterhood of women with special powers.
And throughout the book and the follow on novels in the series, the characters quote what they call the litany.
I have always found it to be useful to learn and repeat as a mantra.
In my head, I replace the word "fear" with "depression" but either works.
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