Holy God is this woman full of crap. I was cringing from the moment she was saying "it really hasn't been that long". It's been ages in social media world. That's not a crime but shut up already with the excuses. This isn't her job? WHAT? It was, it just wasn't working out as well as she hoped and she can't take the criticism.
How disingenuous while trying so hard to seem genuine (which is worse). She wasn't doing other things - well unless other things are the things that come with being an influencer. Patreon not going to be any better if you can't hack YouTube. She has monetized YouTube. Dude. Does she think we are idiots? Of course she's been mentioning products she receives free, and she has ads and she does paid posts with mejuri, COS and others - it may not be at the level she thinks she is worth.
I feel gaslighted - LOL. Whinge, whinge, whinge, boundaries, boundaries, (boundaries meaning I'm not going to explain b/c it's not truthful I reckon). It so was not "her hobby". I mean maybe several years ago when first starting. She's been doing YouTube for more than a year. She hasn't been updating instagram either. She's been on holiday and probably whining about how people are so mean (and yes, they can be, I empathize somewhat), instead of toughening up and recalibrating.
We do remember the career video.
The defensive, I feel like I have a tail between my legs thing is nauseating. Does she really think people are depending on her content so much that they are going to shell out? Arrogance much?
Unless she's now buying and fixing up property now or something with Dean or buying that flat as an investment and sleeping in it she considers a career? But she wasn't doing that for the last year and a half. No one can make 40 min videos of how they've done nothing all day like she does and have a real job - well not her anyway. In the words of my friend's dad "what a bunch of malarkey". Streuth.
Okay, maybe that's all a little harsh. Wait, no, I don't think so
She doesn't owe us anything, that's not what I mean. It's just all this scraping and whining and being dishonest is so transparent, unnecessary and self serving. Leaves me with a very bad taste in my mouth.
What would have been much better was to say "Hey guys, I'm going to share with you that I've been silent for a reason, sometimes I don't think being on Youtube really fits my personality and I've been struggling with it. I took a little break. I'm going to try other ways of doing my lifestyle work b/c I do think I have something to contribute but I'm not sure quite how at the moment..." You know, closer to what's really going on. People can tell insincerity.