I didn’t manage to get the paper on Sunday, would anyone be able to post a screen shot please?
I really enjoy Dolly’s writing, she’s written some lovely responses in her advice column.
Here you go x
DEAR DOLLY: ‘I’M 32 AND SINGLE, AND NOW MY FRIENDS ARE HAVING BABIES’
Your love, life and friendship dilemmas answered
I’m 32 and longtime single, and friends often wring their hands at my bad choice of men, worrying about me living alone with no one around. All has been fine until recently, when all my married friends started announcing babies. Suddenly I can’t stop crying when I’m alone. Do I have to accept that maybe this isn’t going to happen? Or can I hold on for the guy and the baby?
I very nearly didn’t reply to this letter. I really wanted to, because it is a worry that I hear about constantly and know very well. My reluctance to address it is that it concerns female fertility and therefore female bodies. And people have a lot of opinions on female bodies. So my first piece of advice is to ignore any advice that makes you feel anxious or ashamed. Don’t read the comments on this column. Don’t read articles that cite fertility “facts” from studies that date from 150 years ago. Don’t believe the pseudoscience about female biology that you hear anecdotally. The only person you should listen to when it comes to your body is yourself and your doctor.
I’ve always found that when I can’t stop crying, it is an expression of frustration. And I think that is the correct word to describe what it is to be a single woman in her thirties who wants a family and can see no clear way of making it happen. It’s frustrating not to know how or when you’ll meet the right person. It’s frustrating to feel as if there is rapidly dwindling time to get pregnant. Every woman I know in your position says the same thing: “If only someone could guarantee that I will have a baby at some point in the future, I’d stop thinking about it.”
Yet that cannot be guaranteed to anyone, whether they are single or with the person with whom they want to have children. The best way to keep the odds on your side is to make sensible, logical decisions rather than panic-based ones. For starters, enough with the bad men, lady. They’re a drain on your time and heart. And your time and love are precious, irrespective of whether you want children or not. If you don’t know why you keep choosing them, go to therapy. Or if that’s not possible, ask your friends who know and love you to give their insight.
There is also the option of egg-freezing, but this is a deeply personal choice, dependent on a number of factors. One woman I know has saved up to do it and is really excited at the prospect — she sees it as the best present she could give herself for a slightly increased sense of freedom. Another friend recently did a U-turn on the process. She realised that she was only doing it out of fear and she didn’t want to spend all that money on something that represented her own negative thought spirals. Do some research and have a think about whether this might be right for you. Again, freezing or not freezing your eggs won’t guarantee that you will or won’t have a baby.
You should also seek out the stories of women who are a bit older than you and have chosen a less traditional path. Most of the women I see as mentors, whom I’ve worked for and collaborated with over the years, did not meet their husband at university, get married at 25 and have two children before they were 30. Some of them had children on their own through IVF, sperm donation or adoption. Some never had children and don’t regret it at all. All of their stories serve as a reminder that there is more than one way to have a settled, peaceful home life.
One of these women is a director who had her children in her forties. “Once you have babies, Dolly, life is only about babies for a while,” she said. I found this such a helpful reminder to inhabit the stage I’m at right now, and be grateful for what it is at this precise moment, rather than dwell on what it isn’t. Instead of looking at your life and seeing the lack, look for the abundance. Free time? Go to the cinema in the afternoon. Money that doesn’t have to go on childcare? Buy a really stupidly gorgeous handbag. Flat that’s all yours? Paint every room your favourite colour and fill the fridge with Aldi champagne and stinky cheese.
Finally, my most important piece of advice is to keep giving love to the women who have everything you want. Any time you feel jealous of your friends, make a promise to yourself to turn it into an act of love and it will neutralise any feelings of bitterness. Message your friend who is a new mum and ask for baby photos. Go round to see her, take the baby and let her have a nap. Find out what your pregnant friend is craving and send her a pack of it in the post. Keep putting love out into the world and it will come back to you in one way or another. That, I’ve learnt, is one of life’s only guarantees.